Love that song btw...

In 2007 I preached at church about how God had healed me from mental illness. I really believed it and was euphoric and extremely grateful for it. In 2009 my mental health deteriorated and despite many prayers and trying to live my life right I did not get better. It totally threw me as I was sure I had been healed. It felt like a betrayal and I felt like an idiot. At the time I was unaware I had Bipolar and I doubt I would have believed it anyway.

All I am really saying is I know how tough it must be for you to give a testimony then fall ill again. Maybe hearing it again will only make you feel worse. I don't know but take care. So sorry that you are suffering so much right now. I really hope things turn around soon.