Thank you for checking on me. I am not so well. I was in the shower today and my 5 year old (who was out of school for the day) yelled out for me. I hollered over the water that I could hear nothing he was saying and he needed to go downstairs and play.

I called my mom after and asked her if other people ever get these thoughts. She said yes, occasionally but, given my mindset, it was definitely paranoia and I needed to discuss it with t and pdoc. She told me next time just to get out of the shower and it would be fixed.

Then tonight at group, I was completely disassociated (I believe that is the correct term). It was like I was there but in a completely different realm of reality. It was scary. I know I am going mad.