I've spent the day and last night feeling really sick but very non-specific. Fevers off and on, nausea, runny nose, sore throat, just icky. I was worrying about strep. I no longer am....And why? Well, when it occurred to me to take my meds tonight at 1:15 AM (merely 5 hours after med time) it turns out I didn't take them last night and so I've been in withdrawl for 24 hours. And I didn't sleep because I wasn't sedated. It's amazing I slept the bit that I did last night.

I've been mixed for about a week and have been higher a lot, especially in the evenings which makes me forget things. But I don't miss meds. Pretty much ever. The last time I missed them was 18 months ago and I was on strong pain meds after surgery and fell asleep before med time and didn't wake up until morning.

So stupid. I guess now I know that I need to be checking everything I am supposed to be doing. And I'm probably going to be fine in the morning. But how I did this is beyond me. I mean I know, my brain was off on some tangent last night and I was reading some blog from beginning to end tonight because I couldn't remember reading something on it and felt it was the most important thing in the world.

But not good. Not at all good. I know perfectly well that I can't do this.

So very, very stupid.