Sometimes I feel a lot of anger towards my T after I call her.
In reflection, I think it's because I call her in times of desperation, and I expect her to be my 'rescuer'. I put pressure on her that she could never live up too, therefore, I'm almost always left feeling let down. This may not be the case for you at all, but I thought I'd throw it out there.
Maybe you could call your T, and discuss your concerns so you can get some clarification and peace of mind.