Zooks! Christmas season!
2 Christmases ago was the first Christmas after I had threatened my mother with a restraining order. I did not think she would back off, but she did.
That resulted in my losing most of the family I had left. I knew this would happen, but I had to do it.
I crash about this time every year.
I don't have children so I don't have to worry about gifts except for the people in my life now.
I stayed in that family situation because my niece and 2 nephews are in danger too, but it just got more and more dangerous for me. I'm the one who became an informant about my family's criminal organization and I told my family that I done so.Those children are why I did that.They are being raised just like my siblings and I were.
Every Christmas season all of the things my family is about and does replays in my head over and over again.
I get very depressed, very depressed indeed. And this is their preferred season of attack so I spend the season having to remain hyper-vigilant. Every noise... everywhere I go... is that them? Are they in threat mode again?
Thank you for this thread.
I wish you all a happier season than the previous ones.
Black Friday at Wal-Mart that year was practically unbelievable. The hell of Christmas season just seems to be getting worse and worse.