I hear where you are coming from. I am also sort of anti-psychiatry but I still take the meds because I would be completely out of control without them. I kind of see that there is something wrong with society and not me...I just don't fit in. I am also obsessed with love and sex and have done extensive research and participation in the occult in the past. It sucks. It's terrible to be told there's something wrong with you when all you want is to be yourself and act on your desires. It is a horrible daily struggle to not act on my desires.