That was definitely one little PTSD thing mixed with apparently being very manic (according to my mom) yesterday. We had just discussed 2 weeks ago in therapy that my PTSD has remained pretty controlled through all this. (I did a very intensive PTSD therapy 3 years ago and it made an enormous difference in my life and now I'm not used to having it pop up very often. But what happened in the last year and a half with my brother is a whole new thing, related to the old PTSD but also different and I guess this is going to be something I need to watch and talk to my therapist about. My brother didn't do what he did because he was drinking but it certainly didn't help. I have no idea if he is drinking now; I imagine he is but it no longer is done around us except for once or twice. The whole thing is still beyond my ability to really understand and there's a lot going on right now; there was just a plea bargain and now we're awaiting sentencing. So I'm also sensitive b/c it is on my mind a lot.

Oh well. I guess it will give us something new to do in therapy. Like there wasn't enough already .