Thank you for your replies; I haven't been speaking to my psychologist recently because I generally haven't liked our sessions, but I've started seeing a psychotherapist who has been brilliant, so I'll try bring it up when I see her on Thursday. I'm actually mute with the stress and anxiety and everything that's happened recently (I'm autistic, mutism can be a problem for me), but I think it would be less painful to put it properly into writing instead anyway. I'm getting flashbacks, I've lost three babies this year which I think triggered these memories coming back, and if more of them happen I'll need someone to 'talk' to so I can work through them