Hello Charlietango94: Well... I'm certainly no expert when it comes to Bipolar Disorder, although it has been suggested in the past that I have it. One thing I do know is there are various forms of Bipolar Disorder. So it seems reasonable to me that what you are struggling with is, in fact, Bipolar. There are probably others, here on PC, who would be in a better position than I am to address this. Hopefully some of them will.

Beyond that, however, making a proper diagnosis is for mental health professionals... psychologists & psychiatrists. Anything any of us, here on PC, suggest is really just an opinion... a "shot in the dark", so to speak. So I would really like to recommend that you seek out a mental health professional to get an accurate diagnosis & appropriate treatment. I, of course, do not know how serious your relationship with your partner is. But one thing I do know is that it is difficult enough to maintain lasting relationships under the best of circumstances. When one, or both, of the parties to the relationship are having the kinds of struggles you're having, this just makes the whole thing that much worse. So if your relationship with your partner is something you value, you owe it to both your partner & yourself to seek help. My best wishes to you...