Hello Imabeliever225: I'm sorry to read of your struggle. I don't know what your experience has been with your pdoc, of course. But typically, I believe, psychiatrists mostly prescribe & monitor medications. Perhaps yours does more. But it occurs to me that, if you don't already have one (you don't mention it in your post), you might want to seek out the services of a therapist to help you sort out what it is that is causing you to feel so hopeless & to figure out what you can do about it. I know how difficult it can be to crawl out of the chasm of depression. Just when you need to have the most inner strength, you have none. I send warm thoughts your way with the hope that you will be able to find your way back. Please keep posting here on PC...