((((((SEPT)))))))

Your post almost made me cry! You guys have helped me so much, just opening up and talking about all this stuff in my head, these memories, all the screwed-upness now. It feels good to know that other people actually care how I feel.And I care so much for you guys!
I think you're a sweet lady and I don't know that much about DID either! lol. I really just have to sit back and watch her to really be able to tell the differences in her.

Alot of it is in her voice and the way she talks. I can tell. I knew this person was someone I didnt need to be talking to but I did anyway, dumbly and got rewarded for it

You're right, the violent one, in retrospect, doesn't rear her ugly head at me anymore, not since I told her I would beat her down if she ever touched me again. (I was about 20 at the time) That's the one that likes to mess with my sister because she picks fights too! Well this person is VERY obnoxious. Most of them are, where my mother is concerned.

You know the whole husband thing. That's my thinking too. When she had major crises a few months ago, he called me like what do I do. I'm like you can force her into treatment, I can't do ANYTHING. Why does he ask me? She's his responsibility and I'm feeling like I need a break from her for awhile. If she calls and asks me, I will tell her why. I am going to make one more phone call to her and tell her she really needs to get into therapy and then maybe we can all heal our old wounds....until then, none of us can stand to be around her.

I don't know why I let this eat at me so much. I am not HER mother. ARGH! just makes me mad. Mostly because this alter is also the one that likes to do drugs and party. She has abused her body so much...

Thanks so much for listening. It feels good just getting it off my chest.

(((((((((SEPT)))))))))) felt like giving you another hug

Take Care lady,
Kimberly.