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Originally Posted by rcat
Without messing up.
Exactly. I sometimes feel as though I were on show with everyone evaluating how I am performing. Everyone knows I am sick and I think they realize it's hard for me this time of year. Consequently I am feeling like everyone expects me to fall and are just waiting for when it will happen. As a result, I must keep a stiff upper lip and try to proove them all wrong. It is a battle to keep my chin up. And hence, I am on show determined not to show I'm down.
It's all very exhausting
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THIS SUMS UP EXACTLY HOW I FEEL ABOUT THE HOLIDAYS. My Dad is coming to visit for my birthday in a couple weeks... He has been my biggest motivator throughout getting clean. (He is a recovering addict). I am nervous about seeing him bc the last time he was here, it was a disaster (this was before I got clean) so I know he will be evaluating my sobriety in a way.
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