First to say i'm a male, under 25, won't write story for you, will just make some points of what I have experienced or how other would describe me. I know there's something wrong with me, could be a disorder, but wouldn't know which one. any input would be appreciated.

-Grew up moving from house to house within the same city
-not an only child, 2nd of 3
-Father worked nights more of the calm type
-Mother was a stay at home, very strict growing up
-there was some marital issues that I can easily rememeber and that have had some sort of affect on me, parents would be up at 5am talking and I could overhear at times it would be them arguing at times just regular talks
-growing up I was scared they would get separated
-growing up was afraid of being in elevators or being locked in a room without ever getting out, it would panic me
-had to go seek help in order to help prevent the scares and to help me get over it, at times I would be in the room and I would get asked how i'm feeling, and there was times where I wouldn't say nothing, or I would get angry for even being there thinking I didn't need the help this was around age 13-14ish
-I hated not getting things my way and to this day I somewhat still do, I would lash out in anger if it didn't go my way, I would bash the tv controller against the wall over and over or anything I could grab that was an object
-I never really had any friends in elementary school, I was too shy I suppose, never really learned to socialize
-from around age 13-14 I had nightmares of someone getting raped or killed (I wasn't doing the horrific things) because there was a series of rapes going on this salvation army my parents would go, it was scary to think about it that might have traumatized me for a bit
-was self-self-consicious growing up due to severe acne, I would get get ridiculed for it & I would want to steer away from people
-would just worry about things in life constatnly for no reason
-never really had a connection with people
-my ex called me a psychopath which I disagree since they don't feel, I somewhat do or maybe I kind of just mimicked her feelings which is what she said this was around age 17 she said I was too controlling & paranoid about things
-I can be paranoid about things or overthink things but they pass on
-from peers now I get told i'm very charming, a time bomb, open, strange at times, intelligent, kind
-never really shared any of my feelings with family or relatives, just a friend, the best friend
-he understands when I get mad that you better not be in my way because of my aggresive nature that comes out, he leaves the house entirely.
-have had 2 girlfriends, both who I don't think of they kind of just & go
-if I talk with someone, i want to make them fall in love with me, then I kind of just go ghost on them & never talk to them again leaving them clueless
-had terrible grades in high school to the point i almost got kicked out, but thankfully I graduated

inputs? thanks guys and gals!