I left work early yesterday and stayed home today. My anxiety was crippling. I feel like such a failure. At everything. My students aren't learning anything. I come home, my house is a mess, I clean it but nothing changes. The depression has definitely lifted because I don't feel as heavy but I still feel pretty terrible. Now it's taking the form of severe anxiety. My therapist last night suggested I try to confront the fear by doing worst case scenarios in my head. Like play out the worst case scenario and plan how I would react to it so that it won't seem as scary. I actually do that already. I don't know if it will help or not but I'm willing to try.

This is just my life. Nothing will make it any better. I just have to keep living and breathing and maybe someday something will change.