Yeah, I've been where you are with the addition of this is hopeless and what's the point. Even though I'm on meds and going through the whole process it still picks at you. I end up watching youtube videos on depression, its science, lectures, TED talks, etc. I can't stand to watch TV, its what normal people do and it just reminds me that I'm depressed. Sometimes the news helps like BBC America or sometimes the NASA channel. It will keep your mind partially off those thoughts.