Hello Thor 0298: I've had some back problems of my own over the years. They were disabling for periods of time, although not as severe as you are experiencing. I also have tinnitus & have had a not too serious bout with cancer, along with my mental health challenges. How I stay positive, to the extent that I do, is I walk. I also do some sitting meditation, as well as walking meditation. I am also sort-of a follower of the Lojong practice taught by the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön. Lojong is an ancient Tibetan Buddhist practice. The word translates as: "mind training". One important aspect of the practice is summarized by my Signature statement below. This aspect of the practice is also sometimes referred to as "radical acceptance". These are the things that keep me going. I wish you all the best with your recovery...