I feel the same way about my experiences with anti-depressants. For me, every attempt I've made with them seems to have taken me further and further from feeling capable of conquering my own demons. I was in a good degree of distress when I first sought help and was told I was a good "candidate" for anti-depressant therapy, but I'm a wreck now in ways I couldn't have even imagined then. AD's took me from struggling all the way to hopeless.

I can't even remember the whole list of them that I got involved with but it included Zoloft, Lexapro, Wellbutrin, Strattera, and Cymbalta, over many more years than I care to admit even to myself when I consider just how long I waited to experience positive benefit. I kept being told we just had to "get it right". Meanwhile, I lost a decade of my life hinging my state of mind on a pharmaceutical prayer.