i sort of did it. i told the new therapist about the recurring psychosis. he was fine with me not elaborating on my current situation, but he did ask me to write it down and give it to him next week. AM's surprisingly quiet about it. maybe he's just waiting until i try to go to sleep tho. or maybe he knows he can just make me shred whatever i write and i won't end up telling him anything. it's so. conflicting to write about. because i know no one will believe me when i say it. i told him about a time last year where i thought i was a xenomorph queen for 4 months and the predator was coming to kidnap me. i've never elaborated so much about it face-to-face and it felt good? especially because he told me ripley ends up experiencing the same thing in resurrection minus the predator and i had never even Seen resurrection before. he told me that's my other homework assignment, watch alien resurrection. that i can do. that i won't get yelled at or hate****ed or accidentally get the universe erased over. :v

also i thought i had been transferred to him because he works with trans people a lot more than the other, but apparently it was more to do with the psychosis. i wish she would have told me it was about that because i would have opened up to him about that a lot sooner in the session. i always tend to leave sessions going "well that was great and i did a perfectly good comedy act but i didn't talk about the **** that's actually affecting me? lol"