I'm where you're at, sophiesmom. Let's try some diversion, maybe? Right now that's PC...and my cat. She's been good for that for 11 1/2 years, bless her tiny heart.

I have a migraine from crying so much (as well as lack of proper sleep; I worked another 3rd shift last night which I suspect is effing with my mood). I took some Imitrex but it only calmed the roar, didn't take it away.

I also want pizza. Really, really want pizza. But I will just beat myself up if I get some.

So I'm here on PC just bumming around, trying to get myself through this night. We'll make it. We always do, hey?

PS I initiated the process to get myself back into therapy through the employee assistance program at my work. They give 6 free counseling sessions (not at work, ofc) and it is at a place that would be affiliated with my insurance so I could continue there. I think I need to talk to a pro once again. And get help for this apparent eating disorder, which I've never ever actually addressed in counseling before.