I hope that you get matched up with a truly caring, invested therapist who can help you process this - and that you can form a healthy attachment with a new therapist who won't be using you as part of their master plan to feed their ego by 'fixing' the world, but genuinely cares about you and your feelings and making your life better. They're definitely out there.

For what it's worth, you seem really together and logical and like you really are willing to do what you need to do to get the help you need. And I think that's awesome. People so often struggle with terrible therapists for months and months after it has become obvious that everything is toxic. I'm really glad it looks like you're going to save yourself some of that pain.