I know there's parents out there that will think I'm a horrid self centered person....& that's ok. I feel that way myself sometimes. But I also think there just might be parents out there that feel like I do. But it makes me feel like a freak.

I don't wanto be a parent anymore. I wanto quit & walk away. I can't do it. I'm not good at it & I just keep ****ing it up. I've had it. I'm ready to run.
My husband is a good dad, good provider & enjoys life. We have 3 great kids but most of the time I just wanto be alone. I'm tired of it all. The thankless ness, the loneliness, the worthlessness & the arguing. I just don't wanto do it.
I know I'm not doing a good job. I know I'm damaging them. I see books in the bookstore of "how to recover/ survive from a mentally ill parent". Gee the bases are already covered.
I've gotten the kids out of diapers, toddlerhood & into elementary school. I feel like my job is done. I'd love to have a "real" mom step in & take over so I can bow out quietly.
Yeah I know. Pathetic.