Thank you, and I'm sorry you're living this hell too. It sucks, I wouldn't wish this on anybody.

I don't need anyone to "make it feel better" exactly, it's more that I need to not be so isolated... so really, I need to post here more, I can't always leave the house because I can't drive so that really limits things and can cause isolation even when I'm not trying consciously or subconsciously to isolate myself...

I'm taking two AP's, one typical and one atypical... That makes all this a more moderate hell and thankfully the side effects haven't been too bad... But still, I'm taking TWO AP's and that's not touching the voices and other things; but on the bright side I've noticed that the AP's(especially atypicals, I'm taking Latuda as my atypical AP) really do help my thought disorganization from getting too out of control, I mean the meds don't work 100% of the time for that but it at least lets me write generally coherent sentences even though even I know that my thoughts are different due to my illness.