NathanMAqpie50, I'm sorry you are hurting, I wish I have inspiring words for you to make you feel a bit better! Unfortunately I'm so messed up but what I can say, is, that the people here at PC are understanding and supportive and it helps a lot just knowing that some one out there is taking the time reading what you have to say and the 'hugs', this is so sweet!

If I can make a suggestion, I had horrible thoughts earlier today and then after posting a thread I felt some kind of relief because I could say how I feel, I didn't have to keep it to myself, so maybe if you feel lonely, angry and the urge to cut you can write a thread and say how you feel at that moment, see if it helps!

Best wishes to you
Sun