i wish to be normal so bad. but im not. ive been able to fake normality to an extent. but i come apart within minutes. and people can tell theres something off about me. id like to think im funny and original but im just faking normality so much that im not anymore. when im psychotic is when all my creativity comes out. well i wouldnt say that extent. it comes out when im on meds too but not that much. im taking 5mg right now of haldol and noticing that im getting along pretty well but some bumps but my creativity and originality is coming out again.