What's up Riz,

sorry to hear about everything your going thru, doesn't it feel like bad things always happen in pairs?

After reading your post the major red flag I noticed was your lack of a support system(someone to air life's woes to). If I were you I'd do a personal inventory & on a piece of paper write down names of all the people you'd feel comfortable sharing with.

P.S. Be smart about whom you want to discuss certain issues with.