I don't dread seeing my pdoc. I actually quite like him! In fact, I'm due for a return appointment. However, I am conflicted. I'm not on any med's at this point & I have no intention of going back on anything. I'm okay within the narrow parameters of my life as I live it at this point. So, to some extent, there's really no point in seeing my pdoc. But, at the same time, he is my last remaining link to the mental health system. I don't see a therapist or anything such as that. So if I cut my pdoc loose, I'm on my own, period.

And, also, I have this one other problem... I've been called for jury duty twice previously. It scares me to death! And my pdoc has the power to keep me out of it. He writes them a letter... they leave me alone... So, do I keep seeing him so that I can avail myself of his authority if-&-when I get tapped for jury duty again, or do I roll the dice & hope I won't be called or, if I do, that I can survive the experience... It's a conundrum...