Hi Stout -- Welcome. I do not think your posts undecipherable, and you don't need to apologize. I am trying to get over that, too.

I remember my college years as a maelstrom of emotions, and I have seen some of my students go through similar changes. Some people float through life with ease, and some of us don't. I think most of us on these forums are in the latter category.

Welcome, and keep posting.