I have had over 30 positions and I am only 48. I don't lose these jobs. In fact it is just the opposite; I do very well in my positions but the the ever increasing stress to maintain the high level of performance and anxiety renders me incapable of working and I find it necessary to quit. The need for an income found me back at a new job and hence the never ending cycle.

The problem was that I was never addressing my health and only got sicker and sicker. It took me until I was 45 after yet an umpteenth crash that someone recognized I needed and found me help.

Yes, I am on disability. Yes it's a bit humiliating and I'd rather not be. I wish beyond wishes I could have a rewarding career and be able to meet my own financial needs BUT I realize I'm incapable of that and that while meager, disability allows me to maintain an independent life. Ultimately I would like to return to work. That may in fact be in the cards. But right now I have live in a way that I can manage my health.