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Originally Posted by bluemoonBW
Hey, I just wanted to share. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to.
I finally told my therapist about something that happened to me a really long time ago, when I was a kid. It took a lot of courage. I feel really proud, but, also, it doesn't really matter anyway.
I feel really lost and alone and I don't really know what the point of living is. I haven't wanted to be alive for a long time. Now I'm just stuck here, still, and I feel like I can't live the life I want. Also, I feel whiny for talking about it. I judge myself really harshly for anything-- for having feelings, for feeling down, for any mistakes I make.
I guess, I don't know what to do. Anyone have any ideas? How do I start enjoying my life again? Or will I ever?
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Hello lonely, you always have us here to talk to on PC. In my books I would say you are an outstanding individual with immense courage to have told your therapist what happened. You blame yourself for what happened when you were a small child and it has carried on blaming yourself. You did nothing wrong. The biggest step in your life you do not realise, you took at your therapists , but you brush it off. You say you are proud about that but then you say that I doesn't matter. Of course it does. You should be very proud of yourself. You will start to enjoy life again, this person has taken up most of your life, with you being guilty but now you can break through this vicious cycle and learn to live again. I applaud you. Keep going to your therapist, it will get easier.. Best wishes
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