I think you should call him. If you are having the impulse to hurt yourself in your outbursts then you really aren't safe. Mania can be dangerous :-/

How do you feel tonight? I strongly urge you if you feel like you are going to have an outburst to go to emerg. Otherwise, call your doc first thing in the morning.

Do you have a prn you can take? A lot of us have drugs we can take as needed during times of crisis... I have Zyprexa that I take if I feel like I"m going to lose it. Some have Seroquel or others.

If you feel on top of the world and fantastic in your mania, that can still be considered worse, even though it doesn't feel like it to you. It's worse because you aren't stable, and it's often not safe to stay manic.

You need to sleep if you can... Do you have something to take the edge off?

You will not look stupid at all. They deal with this all the time. We are an everyday thing to them :-) Your doc will expect you to call if you are still or are more manic, and especially if you have outbursts.

Trust me, if you are manic, not sleeping, having outbursts and family members are concerned, then it is time to call your doc!!!!

Don't worry about feeling stupid... You are NOT stupid to responsibly seek help during a period of crisis and instability. You are doing the right thing :-)

(((((HUG))))))