J I totally understand what you are saying but me and my ex have such issues with each other I know that keeping the kid would have a poor effect on the both us.

I am not fully ok with the decision and I will always remember I am doing this but as of right now for this situation it is my final decision.

but I do understand where you are coming from I hope you can understand my view on this and I hope I am not coming off as rude or insulting in how i am saying this.\

(lol and I am not trying to be a jerk here but speaking as vet tech I don't think ALL life is really that precious just saying I have been parasitology classes before and parasites are annoying things that need to just not exisit....but my pet rats and guinea pig,gerbils and hamster all are dealing with a mite/lice issue at home and its vastly annoying.

not trying to say I view a child in that sense just trying to find something to make me smile since this week has had a lack of smiles for me.)

I totally understand what you are saying and appreciate you are being kind about what how you are saying gosh knows some people are not as kind about.

I just feel like actually carrying the child and seeing it and THEN giving it up for me would be A LOT LOT harder for me to deal with. Then dealing with it right now at six weeks.

but I have no bad or ill will feelings to you for saying or thinking how you do about this kind of thing dear. I just don't feel the same on at as you or apparently other ladies you know.But all women are different with how they view such things.