Hello all,
I have problems showing emotions. When i was a young child my father enjoyed making me cry. I dont fully understand why he enjoyed doing this , but it has caused me to not show any emotions around other people. Some days i feel like im made of ice, cold and heartless. I am able to show anger and happiness, but any other emotions are bottled up until i can be 100% alone to release them. This has made therapy difficult for me when going through past trauma. I know my t isnt twisted like my father was , but the unsettling memory of my father telling me he enjoyed watching me cry pops into my head when i feel like the tears are about to start. The moment the memory returns, my eyes dry and i instantly become angry. Im trying to find a way to over come this and be able to express myself when the emotions arise instead of holding them in. Any tips or suggestion on how to get past this barrier?