Yes I do and everyone chastizes me for it - which only makes the anxiety worse.
For example all kinds of negative things go through my mind when I go out - let's say to do groceries. Will I meet someone in the hall of my apartment, will my car run, will it have a flat tire, will I piss someone off with my driving, will I be able to park, will people laught at my clothes, the way I walk, my selection of food, will I hold up the grocery line, will I fumble my wallet or draw attention to myself at the check out, etc, etc etc.
I know all these things to be ridiculous and untrue. I know that other people don't effing care. But I can't escape from these thoughts.
I wish I had a fix. I've started CBT to help me do just that. Thus far we have just been charting out the chain of my thoughts to fears to behaviour to consequences. I have been shocked just how much my life is affected by worrying about things I KNOW aren't true or valid.
thought chain (similar to above)
what is the desired action/result/behaviour
rate the anticipated pleasure/success of that situation (0-100)
what are your thoughts/feelings before doing it
why? Including past experiences
what can be done to complete the action/situation (ie. can you have someone else there)
(do it if you can)
what was succesful and what was unsuccesful about the action
rate the actual pleasure/success of that action
I am just starting to do this. It has been very eye opening
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