I returned back in California last Thursday. Before I left, I was worring that my time in Kentucky would be just a dream....& that when I left, that was the end of my new reality....& that is really a scarry feeling. I always felt the same way everytime vacation was over when I had to leave my time share vacation condo in Jackson Hole Wyoming & come back to the reality of my life......it was over until the next year when that period of time would come again.

I know in my mind that Kentucky is a real thing & is going to be my life in only a few months.....it just all seems so nebulous without having actual dates to aim for. The hardest part is that my old life in California has been a 32 year rut.....& a new 2 1/2 months is a short time to realize that as my new life.

The reality of Kentucky is with me however......the motivation has not let up, nor has my ideals for the life I want in my future.....but more than that, my new friends in Kentucky are making sure that my new home in Kentucky is staying a reality in my life. The person who is finishing up the painting of my house & working on the interior part of the window installation is definitely a true friend. He was kind enough to drive me in my new truck to the airport last Thursday & make sure that I got off ok (the best I could do in return was to make sure he & his driving companion that came along had money enough for a good dinner....not just a fast food place...lol). We played phone tag a bit with the time difference, but he wanted me to call & make sure I arrived safely.

I got a call yesterday, to let me know how everything is coming along at the house......I was in shock.......he spent his own time finishing the mowing of my yard & doing some of the weedeating. He is getting the house setup so that when they put in the windows, all my new carpet won't be destroyed.....it is going tobe a huge job since all the framing & some of the rotten wood around the windows has to come out. He is also making sure that my house looks somewhat lived in & also watering my plants & making sure the bird feed in in the feeders so my birdies won't go crazy looking for it. He cleared off the hill next to the pool so the weed seeds wouldn't keep falling into the pool. Also the morning before I left, he helped me plant the 2 new maple trees I had purchased for shading the dog runs. I had the hole dug for one, but hit rock that was beyond the capability of my wimpy tools.

Finding friends that true in such a short time has left me understanding that caring really does exist in this world......& that is doesn't stop when I'm not there....& that I really am a part of the life there.

With that friendship comes my caring in return also.....& my prayers & all other prayers are needed since his mother is having problems with a mass they found in her abdomin. They were to have tests today to help determine what the mass is, but since she had previously had surgery for breast cancer, the outcome won't be surprising.

After just going through the cancer with my Mother, I know what that future would hold. I need to be strong & supportive for him & his family.....& maybe with the experience I had, it will help me be much more understanding & sensitive to their needs. I am blessed to have been given these people in my new life & they are now a part of my life...no matter where I am located at the time. I have come to care very much about my new friends & have learned that even though I have gone through some horrible experiences & had my faith in humanity shaken over the last few years, that is not what has to be & I am not willing to hang onto that way of looking at life.

I have also had a good experience with my own daughter who is going through a rough time in her life when her boyfriend broke up with her while owning a house together. We have had a rough relationship.....she always had a mother (me) who was only interested in her career.....she has been willing to open up & talk to me about her situation & ask for support as to suggestions on handling the situation. Being emotional & letting emotions get in the way of what needs to be done is not me....I have always been the logical person with the answers......I guess this is the right time for that since it seems to be helping ground her into what the facts are in the situation & to try & put the emotions aside. It was hard at first because she just wanted out of the relationship....giving away what should have been hers. I talked to her about that at first, but she wasn't able to lhear what I had to say at that time.....now she is at the point where she is more open to listening to logic. I am so happy that she feels able to come to me & talk.......our relationship is growing too,

Good things are continuing to happen no matter where I am,
Debbie