I'm glad that you are here because I haven't met any other DIDer struggeling with addictions til now. I did have a sponsor in AA who was a life saver for she is the one who helped me to understand that I am not a failure unless I give up.
I myself have been responsibel for picking up that drink/drug on many occassions because I'm tired of the voices and the feelings that come with them. No offence to anyone but some times I just want them all to shut up.
Oops hope that is not breaking any rules here. Just how I feel some times.