Well, yes, thinking you're healed from PTSD is a lie. BUT one can progress to a decent life... once life becomes a little more settled and in control, then the depression will also begin to lift...

Depression tells you lies. You need a mantra so that when you do find yourself thinking negatively you can yell at it saying LIE LIE LIE to the depression (not to your life)... and don't listen to the depression.

Many people who really don't want to end their life are successful because they DO believe that "someone" will "find me in time"...and no one does. Very very few people who I've helped through suicidal thoughts/actions really want to end their life completely... but they do want (and need) to end the life that they are living right now...they need help to change it so it is "livable". Find someone to help you get to that point.