Saturday - received a letter from a service director confirming I'm on a probationary period not work trial, and told me to take time out to recover, and the last paragraph she said another director, who is not linked to the service I work will contact me in the future as I had concerned about some practice issues within the organisation.

I will whistleblow - but scared to do so, because although my line manager tried to convince me to resign as she couldn't give two hoots about me, I'd worried how it will affect her if she gets suspended, and I have enough on her to probably make that happen - she's getting made redudent in end of March 2016 anyway, and think i won't whistleblow until then.

Yesterday evening I came accross two jobs I could apply for, one of them I had already applied exactly this time last year and understand the interview so can prepare myself better, I hate getting feedback from interviews, but I did for this one last year, the manager said I came very close and she was willing for me to do well, and told me to look out for the jobs again and apply next time, which I didn't as I got the job at the current place, so I will apply again, and can prepare myself for it as much as possible - also it's in a different city but fairly close to my current city, and I've been wanting a change for a long time, but only a short train journey home.

I guess I wouldn't have come across this job if I had carried on working.

Also, I'm now concerned about a reference, however, the management did state they have no issues with my work and will write a good reference. but they could change their mind especially if I went through whistleblowing procedures, best wait until I secure a new post. For now, I'll just keep away from them and just hand in my sick note each week.