thanks guys...
since then, it's only been worse. there's a lot of things going on with my dad being gone, my brother moving out, and my mom having to "deal" (that's how she put it) with me. so my mom is just freaking out about a few things, and it's making me feel worse than i did.

so last nite i, i couldn't go online. (my addiction;at least one of them) i sat in my room, laying on my bed for an hour doing absolutely nothing except thinking about the bottle of pills in my top dresser drawer. i thought twice, and remembered that before i do anything, i should at least come here and explain myself, or reply, or something. so the nite ended in a lot of tears and i ended up falling asleep. i woke up at 4 and couldn't figure out why in the world my light was still on. heh. but that was yesterday. not that the rest of the week is looking too good, but..ehh. i just want to see some of my friends, all the ones i'm not allowed to see. darn..well, i best get back to doing school work.

thanks for replying...(((hugs)))