My last bout was triggered by some losses in my life - especially my relationship

But usually, my depression is triggered when something causes me to remember a happy period in my life - and the lack of any 'life' I have now.

I used to be extremely active outdoors. This June I was passed on the street by a black jeep, two kayaks on the roof, and bike on the back. That was once me - even the bike and boats were the right colour. I broke down. I was hospitalized before the day was out.