Got my notice of termination today. Just lost a good paying job, lost a good paying job before that, and before that. Been on this 4-year roller coaster of 'job-hopping'. Just recently diagnosed 9 months ago w/ Bipolar II. Now I'm sitting at home, spazzing out on my Latuda, texting my sister, crying and thinking about the brand new car I just bought, and didn't need (during one of my manic episodes). Now, I'm looking at unemployment, car being repossessed, bills piling up, worrying more than I have ever before. I'm thinking of suicide, but not gonna do it (just thinking how much better everyone would be without me). My kids will suffer, so I won't do it.