No no, I am not concerned about liking her or what people think about my liking her. I don't care about that; I will like who I like. What I am saying (and sometimes I don't explain myself well, especially when depressed which I was when I wrote this) is that she has the same social issues I've been concerned about with myself and in some ways, as an outside observer, I can see why those might be present for her. But she is similar to me in those things and seeing those things in her makes me beat myself up a little--gosh, maybe that's why people don't want to hang out with me, too. And maybe she's the only one who can stand me because she's like me, lol. But like her, those things are so intrinsically a part of me that it's not like I can readily change them, you know? I mean, say people don't like to be around someone because they smell. Well, that's easy to change. Or they don't want to hang out with you because you're kind of a B when you drink. Also something that can be changed. But this is something that is part of our personality.

I don't know, I'm not in the same mind-space I was when I wrote the OP but I hope I'm explaining this a little.

Incidentally, now that I'm not in such a depressive mood I have a little more perspective and I don't totally feel the same way. I think that there are many reasons why I'm not super-popular (that's not the best word for it because I am respected by my peers) and not all of them are negative. Some of them are probably just that I don't have a ton in common with the majority, and that's actually okay. It's hard when I'm depressed because I want to be part of what everyone else is, but at the same time, I don't click with them. It was that way in high school, and it's that way as an adult, just not quite as salient.