I am glad you are doing better now Aina- if you think you may have BPD please get it checked because there is no drug for it or cure really - they give you drugs for the symptoms and teach you how to retrain your mind - so the sooner you start the better it is, IF thar is something you have to deal with - also, the test on this site is the most accurate online one I have ever found (as long as you are completely honest).