I did really really well today. I was given some birthday money and went shopping for myself for the first time in years. It felt really good to get out it felt really good to treat myself. BUT, I went super early when the store opened so as there to be as few people as possible. I admit I was really self conscious - especially when the clerk gave me attention and asked my size. I was REALLY anxious. I just wanted her to go away. But I got through it and in the end realized I'd done well both figuratively and my purchases. It was a very big day for me today