Hello I m 14 years old male and I have depression for about 2 years I think and about two weeks ago I went to the psychologist. I got diagnosed with medium depression. Though I'm not really sad or anxious when Im in school. And about since the last summer I started to be more interactive with people, because I became a Boy Scout. Anyways I got really good friends with a girl and she likes me a lot and so do I. We chat on the internet until very, very late night. Sometimes it s kind of sexting, but we are joking at most.

But when I meet her or other people(doesn't matter if she is there or no. Just anyone that is not from school and I know them) I go absolutely insane. I think about every single word I say so I can't have proper conversations.

Also when the girl I like sayd she would want to get warmed up by me I just ignored her words and pretended I didn t hear anything because i was so terrified of that thought of me actually cuddling with someone. I can t even have the courage to hug her or do something which makes me really sad. I want to do it. But I can t. I just freeze in place. My mind gets filled with a lot of scary thoughts with worst case scenarios, my heart everytime I talk to someone beats like crazy and my hands go really cold.
I think I have this because in my childhood there was a bully girl. I was 6 years old and she was 14. She spit and bullied my for about a year and I was scared of her so really bad.

Anyways please help me is it really depression that is causing this horrible feeling of getting locked in place and just standing awkwardly or is it no? Please help me. Please tell me what to do. I want to overcome this thing really bad, but I can t.