I hurt. I feel disconnected.

Therapy just finished, and I feel horrible. Always asking questions - I think I saw a thread here about therapists focussing on certain words? Yeah, he does that... and it hurts. Another stupid self-harm contract covering everything from blatant attempts to harm myself - to negative self talk (hah, like that will happen) to witholding emotions.

Can someone please agree with me here that my T is NUTS? He's asking too much of me.

I feel hopeless. I don't even know if he was trying to help. I felt so far off. My emotions wrecking havoc on everything. Said some stuff I shouldn't have.

Now I'm alone again and have to wait until Monday. Phooey.