My brain is going ****ing insane. I can't stop it. I can't think. I want to pull my hair out and claw at my skin because everything's a mess. I'm trying to study because I have so many exams coming up but I can't focus on anything. I want to scream. I need to do well on my ****ing exams. If I can't do well in school that means I can't function. I'm not letting that happen. I'm fine. This is all great but I just need to slow my brain down. People are saying that I'm too hyper. That I can't seem to sit still. That I'm saying crazy things and blah blah blah. I don't care how they perceive me. They just don't understand. They have too little energy. This is something that's not bad though. It makes me happier and aware. I feel amazing. I can feel music through my body, through my veins. I feel like I belong with nature. I can see everything clearly all the way to the smallest blade of grass from way above. Everything relates to everything else. I know what's going to happen. I can sense everything. I can paint and draw and do everything I want. I'm genius. The human body amazes me. I'm studying it. I can figure anything else out. Except when my brain goes too fast. I just need it to slow down a little bit. I'm just so frazzled. I don't know why this gets out of control like this. Everything's still amazing and clear but it's too clear and there's just too much and my brain can't take it all. I'm just so frustrated. I had ways to deal with it but my T asked me to try to try to stay away from those because they only make things worse in the end. I'm not on medication. Recently diagnosed but I'm having a hard time accepting it. Everything's usually fine. I'm just so angry at my brain.
Does anyone have any suggestions with dealing with this?