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Originally Posted by K_vd_W
I haven't been diagnosed by a psychiatrist, but I can tell you I struggle with depression. There's even a possibility of bipolar 2, going for an assessment soon. Anyway, I have noticed in the past year almost severe mood swings. My depressive 'phases' are much worse and more obvious. Today I felt myself sinking back into depression. My mother also noticed this and asked me what's wrong. I told her I'm just feeling down, immediately her mood changed and I could tell she was irritated. It's always been this way. If I can't giver her an answer as to why I'm feeling like this, she gets irritated, as if I have control. And I can't help but resenting her for that.
My mother, generally, is a very kind and understanding person, but when it comes to this kind of thing, she gets angry with me. Like I told her my psychologist wants to send me for a psychiatric assessment, she was against it and very unhappy about it. I know I'm just ranting, but does anyone else have this problem when it comes to family?
I just don't know what to tell her to make her understand. I'm actually considering lying to her if I am 'officially' diagnosed with MDD or BP2..
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something about Moms. When I was a child and living at home, I felt like the LAST thing I was permitted to do was portray to others that I had a mental illness. "There is nothing wrong here." That was the message outgoing. So, this being from my own mother, I naturally deduced that it was me who was weak. After all, wouldn't my own mother want to help me in any way? No, she wouldn't. She was more concerned (and still is) about the family facade.