That is so me! When I was depressed earlier this summer, when I would kind of feel better I would think to myself that "this isn't right, I don't deserve to be happy, I have to stay miserable". I don't know why that's where my mind doing goes, but it's how I think when depressed. Which in the long run makes it harder for me to get better, I'm assuming. I really owe my being able to get out of to my medication.