Hi everyone long time lurker and new poster here. I need some advice and an objective opinion because I'm at crossroads here. My parents have always been people that I have respected and loved alot but now I look back on my life and I'm starting to hate them, despise to the point I can't stand them and just being around them makes me sick. So a little background info I was diagnosed as rapid cycling treatment resistant bipolar a little less than a year ago (I'm 22 btw) and had my first panic attack/breakdown around year and a half. I've always been depressed, for as far back as I can remember and looking back on my life my parents have done nothing but made my situation worse. I was a chubby kid and my dad and brother would constantly make fun of me for it. My mother would have outbursts about me criticizing my weight and would end with me crying.My brother( he is 2 years younger) would constantly fight and it would always end with my brother hitting me and me crying and for some reason my parents would always blame me for it with " I'm older therefore I shouldn't have provoked him" or "Why do you keep playing with him, just play by yourself and ignore him"