Yes, I am worried about how my parents would react coz they would feel like they failed somewhere in raising me or something. I went through a traumatic incident when I was 16-17yrs old. I was depressed since then. Although I overcame it, it keeps coming back when I least expect it. Iam 23years old now, so I have been experiencing depression n nightmares n stuff for around 7years . I try to live life normally by pushing all the negativity back, but somehow it comes back when I read something in the news about some case that sounds abit like mine, or certain events, things etc. I get depressed for like a day or so, then I try n pull myself together. I get nightmares atleast once every week, disturbed sleep.. I noticed that the longest time between these episodes is around a month and on average every other week..
I have trust issues, insecurity about my self image, etc.
We don't have a family doctor, so I cannot speak to anyone, and although I have a job n am in college for my masters , I stay home with my parents (in India it is common to stay with parents till u get married or get a job far from home) so I can't go to visit a psychiatrist without my parents' knowledge. Mental health issues are kinda taboo n not discussed openly. People think going to a psychiatrist equals to being crazy, mad or need to be locked up in the psych ward kind of mental illness.